Candy is back in form of Coco

Dear Candy,
“Sorry, I know, I am writing to you after around five months gap, but for a reason, I have got someone who is now helping me in regaining my writing strength. Yes, your brother Coco, sleeping just adjacent to me in your mom’s room at GMCH 32. Your photo frame on the side table kept inviting, as if you inspiring “Write Papa, Write Papa. Start addressing me”. So, here I am with my words for you love.
It was a much awaited morning after a sleepless night for both of us. Poonam anxiously waiting for series of injections and dripping before surgery without having her breakfast. It was the same private ward of the said hospital where last time Poonam recovered with her first pregnancy in 2007. I have no option but to sooth her with pleasant devotional songs buzzing out of my laptop. Candy, sometime, I feel so sorry for your mother, who bears the pains of end number of injections and other form of piercing to compensate your absence. Every pain from her senses, kills me. But she, infact is a brave lady, manages. There was no curiosity, no further discussions concerning boy or girl. By heart I was expecting a baby girl, as we want to see our own Candy again in form of a baby girl. Your albums preserved in my laptop gives us little time to ease off. I tend to be too strong, but for a moment felt so week to control my tears. Your every frame with us, really counts. We think of you everyday but today your remembrance everywhere.
So, a boy or a girl - In my own personal opinion, it hardly cost us. I was discussing with Poonam, A girl has to go her bride’s native like you whereas I can foresee circumstances down the line 25 to 30 years later from now, when a son would leave his parents for the better avenues. Sometime I rues on myself despite of our love and affection with each other, I barely 500 metres away from my parents home, not living with them, settled in my own lifestyle. Over the last three years, I defined my own routine, no parental control on me, thus leading a royal routine or say Break free. My predictions suggest, we also play a sensible parents to leave Coco in his own lifestyle.
Outside Operation Theatre, it a moment like which I never went before neither I would again. I have never been so nervous even before any house test/examination or say…. my interview at Airtel. My anxious moments last for 90 minutes which would truly be unforgettable in lifetime. Chatting on my Blackberry or SMSing fails to kill that time. Last time when Candy was born in March 2007, I was having chill out in Mehli Mounts (Shimla), somewhere in the middle of my business. But now, as if time want to test my patience. And when, a loud call for Poonam’s attendants dominates the hospital crowd, seems like soothers for my ears. I just want know Poonam’s well being. “Yes, she is OK. Here’s your baby” said the nurse. Cool and calm soul, with winking eyes, weighting as like cotton roll bundle in pinkish look never cried. Gender hardly bothers me. Ohh !!! That’s baby boy after glueing Coco’s downside portion. His hold in my arms was a much awaited relief which we missing every since you left us love. Warmth of an “own” baby hard to narrate, describe but can only be feel.
Thank You Poonam of bearing pain and Candy please continue to bless you little brother from up there.
Stay Connected”
Your’s loving Dad
Sudeep Rawat

Diwali Celebrations continues for Rawats, as they regained lost parenthood

Chandigarh, October 20, 2009 : The birth of a new baby marks the end of year long nightmare for Rawats, as they today blessed a baby boy. 29, Sudeep, a journalist turned PR professional thrilled with joy when his wife 27, Poonam delivered a healthy baby boy this morning at 1100 hours by one hour long operation in a state run GMCH 32 Hospital at Chandigarh. Sources reveals that boy is normal (3 kg) and both kept in a private ward who, continue to be there for a day or two.
The second issue, thus brought a reason to smile for four years old married turned mourned couple after the tragic loss of their daughter Candy in last December 2008. 19 months Candy passes away due to food pipe blockage on a breakfast table during Sudeep’s last stint at Himachal Pradesh. Since than, the couple recovered quite well and waiting anxiously for the new arrival. Sudeep has referred this moment as “Return of the Candy”.

“Yes, I am Man of the Moments, as I have regained my lost fatherhood. I am sure Coco would give me more strength me in my life to perform well.” Signs off Sudeep.

Invitation for you my love

“Dear Candy,
This morning, I received a call from a landline number all the way from Dharamsala (HP). I usually hesitate to attend the call on my Airtel HP number (which I retained after my transfer to Chandigarh) knowing the fact that I am cursing roaming since last five months. You know what my love !!! That call catered an invitation for you by those who turned out to be your fan for a moment, the organizers I mean. I actually overwhelmed for a while when I learnt about the Baby Show Competition which is being under the aegis of Kangra Valley Summer Festival and the organizers were continuously trying to get in touch with me. Finally they got their man but not their participant.

Candy, what a moment that was, when me, Poonam and you attired in their best made it to that Baby Show venue. I still preserve those pics and video (though that was the toughest job assigned by your mom for me to have maximum pics and lengthy videos from handycam as I can). I won’t like to recount those moments just for the sake of filling that ongoing blog. All I can say that was one of the glorious moment of my lifetime witnessing own daughter in this form of a beauty pageant.

You rocked the stage that times my love which resulted yet another invitation for this edition. I was just a mute spectator while attending call to listen all the details of upcoming Baby Show and wishing all new wannabe participants that don’t leave your parents in lurch.

But dear you Stay connected”

Your loving Dad
Sudeep Rawat

Yet another world beyond Airtel.

Dear Candy,
"How are you ‘up there.’ I know it had been an over a month, ever since I briefed you. My apologies love. You too, must be missing your dad. Right ?? The delay was for a reason which I wanted to share with you in my lasts blogs but my professional commitment level seems to be much much higher than the personal one. Hardly managed to get time for blogging.
Anyway…. I am a happy and satisfied today which I was never before. Ask why ?? Love, against the all odds, opposition and giving thumbs down to mounting recession, I have resigned from my 2.5 old family. Yes Airtel. And believe me, I am feeling damn satisfied and from now I am looking way ahead for a new inning. After your demise, your mother never feel like coming to HP, neither I forced her. And eventually lend my transferr to Chandigarh with a different profile, which was not of my liking. But interestingly that unwanted liking continued for a quarter (three months). Today, this evening while drafting my adieu mail, I was actually rewinding my good and bad days of Airtel where you share our major portion. Ohh Love, A for Aarushi and A for Airtel, both are not with me. Sad part.

Your dad in all form of life, believed in driving things rather dragging. And this was the prime reason for leaving Airtel. I was really not enjoying, (though performance was satisfactory) the kind of sales profile, which I never thought of doing in my lifetime. Two reasons – my career and my ethics didn’t allow me to continue with Airtel. I had never been so enthusiastic in sales and always fear of being messing up my career and posing a 'threat' for my own good team. Ethics. Yes, your dad always tried to push ethics even in corporate world. Ethically, it would be shame on me, If I sitting on a sales profile, again dragging things (instead of driving), thus not giving a chance to someone who actually more deserving than me. Earning hefty amount of salary in this manner which Sudeep Rawat never believes. Moreover, Sales was not meant for me in a long term. At the end of the days, felt so satisfied to see smile on Sumit’s face, whom I gave handover some days ago.
Love, I am proud to lend a little portion of my life to India’s largest mobile company, also to the major portion of their telecom market i.e. HPHP Circle. I have seen every colours of Corporate culture in Airtel, which by and large badly hit me. One major merger of HP, three transfers and one personal loss of you was more than enough to shake me. But love your dad have enough strength to perceive yet another world beyond Airtel.
To share with you little boldly..I am on the verge of floating my own venture. Yes, another world beyond Airtel awaits me.
Stay connected"
Your loving Dad
Sudeep Rawat

Happy Birthday Candy.

Dear Candy,
"Exactly a year ago, at the moment, I was busy in making a different kind of arrangements which I did never before. Celebrating first birthday of a daughter is a lifetime delight. Today, March 5, on the occasion of your second birthday, I can only gift you this blog and tones of kisses to your frames placed at my bedside, above TV screen, Walls and even on my laptop screen saver. Happy Birthday - My Love.
I am sure my remembrance of your one and only Birthday celebrations won’t be fad. A handful of guests on your last celebrations at our newly transferred placed at Dharamsala last spring continue to rule my minds. My lovely kiddo looks damn gorgeous in her new dress brought by her mom. Kalsang Tsering my Tibetan friend from Mcloedganj, one of the guests of that day is still not aware of your absence. His "khatta" (a typical tibetan white scraf for someone's honour and well bring) on the ocassion didnt worked out. Your mom is known for her hospitality and for that day, too, she was a perfect host and cook. Gave her best to host a dinner and kept me on rolls for all arrangements through out the day.
Candy, Best I can do to satisfy your soul was to feed unknown children of this beautiful world. I know my expense against donating few kilograms of Dal, Atta, Chaawal, other form of cereals, sweets and nominal cash to a nearby orphanage seemed little as what we planned for your second birthday celebrations, but love we both felt highly satisfied withis act. Lord bless those unknown children for long.
Love, your mom has decided, your day won’t go begging like usual day. Candy II or Coco would have a privilege to slice the cake on your behalf. Amennnn.

Be happy in your world.

&
Stay Connected"

Your loving Dad

Sudeep Rawat

Target achieved, Tribute to Candy

“If I could dedicate my win, it’s none other than my sweet loving Kid Candy. Sir(s) it’s a tribute to that little demise soul.”
Dear Candy,
"I couldn’t resist myself for abovesaid words in six hour grilling session of zonal review of Chandigarh Zone’s Sales (Bharti Airtel Limited) last evening , when over a dozen of Sales Gurus lending their all senses towards a big screen for evaluating their monthly performance. Yes, love, your Dad in a new of role of "Territory Sales Manager" has proved himself once again against the all odds. Never ever, thought of I being a Sellu (Sales) of a leading telecom brand, but when you was in my mind and above all, if this kind of tribute was planted, this victory was obvious. The February 2009 ended on fruitful note, thanks to my distributer and retailers selling Airtel every nook and corner.

Zonal review amidst top shots and fellow colleagues, where silence usually dominates the scene. Where one preaches other follows. Debate, Anxiety, Tension, Nervousness, Curiosity and all form of mental transformation, it’s all happening at that moment of life. Tons of appreciations, awards, recognition for achievers and feel of shame, realizing the sense of accountability, bashing and what more for – non achievers. Everyone is there at team to prove their mettle, so as me. Love, tell you what, I am lucky enough to survive all odds and adapting sudden change of work environ and very motivated team & management. Love, I am really enjoying my new profile and of course peers of this telecom feel, soon I would have now ample of experience of Sales and Marketing. “Amennnn”

Last night, before your mom and I went for a sleep, on sharing this tribute, silence of your mom and tears filled eyes actually inspires me to deliver more in my new profile.

Love, be there to inspire me. You still rule our hearts and mind.

Leaving the celebration of last month’s achievement here only , tomorrow will be a new day, new month, new target and new approach to achieve the same.

Stay Connected."
Your loving Dad
Sudeep Rawat

Ohhh Candy, atleast come to my dreams.

Dear Candy,
"As usual one more day goes begging in your faded memory, but today is slightly a different from one from rest of the other day due to an obvious reason – your parent’s anniversary. Ohh love, how can we tell you, how much we are missing you. For your mom, the day starts with a loads of wishes, smiles, greetings, blessings, phone calls and plenty of pleasantries but short while ago, at her bed, day ended with her tearful note. She can’t stop her tears for a once, the moment she realizes your absence. How can we signed off for the day without your rememberance. Hardly I can do for your mom, allow her to get burst in her tears, so that she can be bit ease off from her heavy heart and mind filled with your memories.
I feel bad for your mom, she is going through such a tough time in her so early age but I am hopeful we would have our days in coming time. Love, I am not only struggling professionally but personally as well and can see a light in the tunnel. I am sure your mom would act as a solid supporter (as she used to be in HP) and stand me with support in my struggle.
Love, If God allow us to have a wish for the day, we would only ask for your return. We still rues on that how can we lose such a lovely daughter. Love we want you back.
Do come to our dreams and share some moments again.
Stay connected."
Your loving Dad,
Sudeep Rawat