Silence of the Candy

Dear Candy,
"Sorry !!! (shame on me) I couldn’t save you despite of our best. Rued at your grave in Chandigarh yesterday for your last rituals I blamed myself, If, I did little for you. Lot many couldn’t turn up for your cremation but my dear, condolences from across the world continue to flooding my SMS box, Scrap book and inbox. Those who have touched, kissed, hugged, played, share moments with you and even saw your glimpse, trying to get in touch with me while I am speechless, mute spectator struggling for each clarification.

My family sometimes gets the feelings that, I was more committed professionally rather my personals. Even at this point of time, while writing my first blog as a tribute for you, they all feel that I am still devoted to my official work. Your loving Uncle Sandychef, overseas at Seychelles now doubting on my parental care. Please if someone convey them that I am not so hard by heart. Your last moments on my laps still rule my mind. Why don’t you allow us some time to react my baby ? We both keep asking this question till our end. Barely half hour after our wake, you have behaved normally despite you having a mild fever. Ohhh my love, how come you, so cruel to your parents. We never know. You have braved all forms of conditions and known for your adaptability touring all the length and breadth of HP with me. Don’t say that you couldn’t hold for that moment. Should I blame to you or that Lord where we are residing barely 200 metres to Lord Tarana (Goddess Kalli) Heights at Mandi over a period of three months ?

Candy, I swear you, your Dad has done nothing wrong for anyone for a single penny and supposed to be one the adjustable soul (three plug pin) in all circumstances, be it personal or official. Than why, I was made responsible to endure this agony.

My love, I am not that strong enough to join in the middle of mourn taking place downstairs. That’s why playing with the words on my laptop, just for you. The words, even, seems supportive and kind to me which they never before. I am not rich by pockets but your poor father wants to cherish your memories for long through this blog. I hope I would be able to continue with same to share my pain and gain with my near and dear. I would always regretted not to score the century of your photo collection in my album at Orkut but surely this blog would be a part of my routine like you was.

Don’t know weather your mom whispered at you being one of the strong contenders for Miss World/Universe in coming years. But, Yes, we got the same clear indications since beginning when you become the favourite of AEWA (Airtel Employees Wives Association) in Shimla, then Dharamsala and finally Mandi. Indeed a, glorious moment for all us when you step in for your first baby show contest this summer at Dharamsala. Love, I will see you in all forms of kids whom I will come across in my routine and convey the same warmth to them. Your elder cousin (Didi’s daughter) Frooti is the current champion in Judo and Skating in her category and I always wanted to see you follow her footstep. But now please bless her from heaven for her dominance.
Meanwhile, I continue to console your fan club.

I assure you, there would be no celebrations on X-Mas, New Year (where we planned for Manali) and even your Dad’s birthday (December 28). I am confident for never-ending tears of your mom will be finally completes by the end of the calendar and we all are prepared in a new spirit with dawn of New Year.

Be happy in your world."

Your loving Dad.

Sudeep Rawat

COMING UP : Candy's photo collection.